..I booked my first national commercial!
Exciting stuff right?
I formally prayed after I got the confirmation e-mail. Formally as in actually got on my knees and thanked God for the opportunity to do these kinds of things. Peter would have been proud
I'd been put on avail (i.e. part of the final round of potential actors) the night prior and had since been refreshing my e-mail anticipating an acceptance or rejection letter
I try not to do that, get hung up on jobs but I'm not perfect and I slip up sometimes
"Hold on tightly, let go lightly" -- better said than done Lupita
Either way, it worked out well for me this time so perhaps a firm grip ain't all that bad...
Sitting in a corridor with about 6 other black girls, all of us looking like the unfriendly black hotties Cady Heron fears
My first audition went well enough though, I didn't feel one way or the other about it and went about the rest of my day not hung up on it.
The hangers only came out when I got a call back. Really? Cool, they must have liked my look
2nd rounds went better. I was nervous they'd be over me because I had to push back my audition time, but I walked out of casting feeling like I'd booked the room if only that
You know when you leave a space and feel like you really made an impression on people? Like when when you go on a date and know the other person in that moment is really interested in you even if they never call you again? Or when you leave a party and know people will ask about you because you were just ever so charming? Yea, that's how I felt.
Interestingly enough, as I walked to my car afterwards I was bunkered down in sadness. Not because of the audition, but because the person I usually call after all my auditions (especially the good ones) I can't call anymore. And in that moment I felt really alone- which is an over exaggeration of emotions yes, but let's be real we're all melodramatic in our sadness.
But melancholy be damned! And what better pill is there for it than opportunity.
So yesterday I filmed and the final cut should be streaming in about 4 weeks!
So catch me INside your television/computer/ipad/smart-phone screens. How bout that?