"crazy funky junky hat."
I don't sleep. It's a terrible habit my vampire schedule has curated. And unlike my blood sucking counterparts I don't get enough shut eye during the day either. So not only am I Vitamin D deficient, I'm also sleep deprived. Which I wouldn't mind so much if I was more productive in my REM-less hours, but I spend a good portion of my awake time goofing off on Netflix, Youtube and other procrastination traps (damn you britpopprincess!!)
I shot a dance video recently with Daniel Galuppo of Daniel Galuppo Productions and as we sat together to edit this video, I caught myself studying his work space and feeling simultaneously impressed, jealous and motivated to get my act together because He. Is. So. Put. Together! Which is refreshing as he's my videographer/editor (and is fantastic at what he does). On the flip side, I left feeling like the disorganized mess of a two sided gemini coin
On the other side of this coin however, is a brain chocked full of ideas, words and wild dreams that I fight to get out. I will forever be my biggest critic. It is my fear that I will fall prey to my laziness and never accomplish anything. As a result I live in a somewhat constant state of anxiety of feeling like I'm never doing enough. It doesn't help that I work in "the industry" and am constantly asked So what do you have coming out next? but that's another story on it's own
You might be tempted to tell me not to be too hard on myself, but the truth of the matter is I could be doing alot more. I know what I'm capable of and I'm not near a fraction of what I can produce. Produce in terms of art, life goals, personal growth etc. In the meantime though I'm proud of said dance video Daniel and I are working on. We're still in the editing bay but I'll be sure to update all my social media platforms when the final product launches. Even with all my self nagging, I still think it important to cheerleader myself (I was a flyer in high school). So for your teasing pleasure, here's a screen grab of the upcoming dance video that had me finna ask me for MY number #gogina